He walks; head to the ground, trying to avoid the inevitable sun which feels like a veil tinting the world with a hot harlequin hue. He walks; there is no escape from the irrationality of the universe except through death, and what a though that must be, completely conforming to the belief in an irrational doomsday: the day the universe will seize to be; as if the universe continues to be after each individual death. Everyone will have their special day to die; the universe dies with them.
Give him death as he walks, and the thought which strikes him would be that of sex. He walks under the glaring veiled rays of the sun which feel like hot spears trying to hold him down and perform a vivisection on his sweating body.
Remember, this is not his description of himself; it is only the narrator’s. The only thing in common between him and me is the deathlike sun.
He walks, and as he jumps from shade to shade, he feels a light breath-of-ice Zephyr blown by chance and probability from the window just above him. And he hears a voice, a voice of a woman, and the thought reaches full fruition: The deathlike sun, and the erotic breath of ice coming from the woman. Imagination takes hold of that orgasmic moment, which the character and the narrator share, and we rejoice with our ability to imagine.
The orgasm, be it that of eroticism or that of the written word taken as the tumult of thought, is seen by many as the end. But the orgasm, as a peak, is only a beginning, for with it consciousness stands in the gallery of dreams which is the absolute and the infinite.
The woman holds our man on the threshold of a swoon. He stops beneath the window and listens to her voice. An anonymous she; could be anyone; could be you. Imagination, caressed with the light breath of ice, forces her to our consciousness. The woman in the workplace, wearing black high heel shoes, a V-neck black dress that skims her knees, which are now on top of each other as she crosses her legs. A silver bracelet wraps around her left wrist and two stud pearl earrings hang steadily from her ears like crucified gems.
…and beneath her chic clothes, the little golden hairs of her body play with the Zephyr which travels on her skin, through the hills of her breasts and her small grape-like nipples, across her navel which tastes like seasoned wine, down to her lily bearing seeds atop her white-marble legs.
He becomes the Zephyr—as she once was—travelling across her body, trying to possess it as he surrounds it with his cool touch. She looks at him with eyes that see desire without a leash, open up to its infinite boundaries of excessive passion. But her body does not give in to the terror in her eyes; she submits helplessly to his call for tragedy which will only stop at death. He pounces on her like a predator on a prey, but I cannot describe anymore, I have to stop at this penultimate point, for if I continue, the universe of words and letters and literature and poetry and language will die; they will die because eroticism does not have a language. We cannot aptly describe eroticism, no matter how grandiloquent our language is. To transgress the limits of language is to make language as strong a taboo as the themes we use it for, and silence is all that would be left. I am forced to withhold ejaculation and stop my verbal masturbation; I do not want my language to be announced dead.
But let me hope that the violence of love will turn into tenderness which only makes the prey yearning for the predator as much as the predator hungers for the body of the prey, but still, none of them would want to lose the other. The truth be told: love is the desire to live in fear of possible loss, with the beloved holding the lover on the very threshold of a swoon.